What exactly is it that makes fantasy so much more attractive than real life? Why is it possible to build up these insane worlds in peoples heads to the point where they actually prefer them to what their own senses are telling them?
I know how amazing the real world is alright. I have an inclining of the bloody fantastic things our own bodies are doing every second in order to keep us alive, I know about some of the ridiculously complex social structures which have cropped up throughout the world, I vaguely get some of the unbelievable reactions needed to keep a star burning...
But, nobody else seems to get it. They're more concerned with their fucking television sets or magazines or pathetic little social grudges.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!
WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK WHAT THE NEIGHBOURS GET UP TO!?! WHO REALLY SHITS THEMSELVES WITH FALSE REMORSE WHEN A TELEVISION CHARACTER GETS WRITTEN OUT OF A SCRIPT THAT APPEARS TO HAVE BEEN CREATED BY THE MOTHER OF ALL AGONY AUNTS ON CRACK!!?
WHY DO YOU INSIST ON DOING THIS TO ME!?!
I WAS HAPPY IN MY LITTLE FANTASY LAND YOU BASTARDS!!
I LIKE NOT THINKING BEYOND THE NEXT COUPLE OF HOURS!!
I LIKE PRETENDING TO NOT HAVE ANY RESPONSIBILITY WHATSOEVER!!!
I LIKE PRETENDING THAT I'M THE ONE IN THE RIGHT!!!!
But oh no, you just have to go and push it past breaking point don't you? You just have to drag my mind, kicking and screaming, out of its self-imposed immaturity and selfishness.
I WAS ENJOYING BEING THE SELFISH LAZY CUNT YOU FUCKERS!!!
I HATE absolutley fucking DESPISE actually not being a hypocrite. I take pleasure in never doing anything to make the world a better place whilst mentally/verbally crucifying those who (truth be told) are not much worse than I am.
Evidently that golden period is coming to an end. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I am a fucking immature freak, leastways I try to be. And generally it's been quite enjoyable.
But some bastard somewhere has evidently decided that the golden period is over and pressed the diamon-encrusted "FUCK YOU" button.
No. I'm not gonna say what set this off. It's enough to simply say that I hate every single one of you but know that I don't really mean it...you have no fucking idea what I'm on about do you? Truth be told neither do I. I'm gonna post this because it's the easiest way to swear at the world without getting in too much trouble for it.
Then I'm gonna wonder off somewhere and do some rather serious thinking.
Would you believe that just two hours ago I was unbelieveably happy?
Heh.
So bloody easy...
SOMEBODY PROVE ME WRONG!!!!
Entertaining some rather disturbing notions...
Mataspore
